Wow.

ok so it's been a while eh? i go from blogging almost everyday to blogging once every few months...drastic...not that anyone reads this haha it's moar for me to just...let things out -.-
lots to talk about...my love life took a turn for the worst in january. all though you already know about all the stuff with logan and tyler...theres more. I broke up with tyler, i have no idea why, i love him. (don't tell me im stupid..trust me ok..i know im only 14 but...its just...i do ok?) I dated nate, then logan, then ian, now its andrew...it's only june. I don't know why i've gone through guys like clothes but...i know i don't want to become a girl who breaks everyones heart. I know i don't want to have disposable boyfriends, and i know that i need to stop falling for guys more than a year older than me. It's a long story but basically 2 seventeen year olds since november, both of them broke my heart. But amongst all the relationship chaos i've realized there's only one guy i want and every thought leads back to him, Tyler. He knows i want him back, i actually told him about an hour ago, i said "No games, in total seriousness, im want to give us another chance if you're willing" he says "I'm not sure really" and in all honesty, i wouldn't blame him if he said no. I know i really hurt him when i broke up with him a short 5 months ago...and i know i never ever wanted to hurt him like that, i mean i was in love with the guy for 6 years people..you gota understand here. I dated him for a little over 6 months..when i broke up with him we were about a week and a half away from our 7th month. and as i've gone through these guys i've realized..i will never be more happy with anyone like i was with tyler. I will admit, he's not the most attractive guy i've dated, but he's a cutie, and he's so sweet, and funny. Sometimes he can be downright mean, though never to me just his (and my) friends. But he's working on it...All i know is that i really hope he'll take me back, but i understand if he doesn't. And if for any reason you read this tyler (though i highly doubt you will) well, i love you.

long time no see!!

Omg it's been forever since i blogged last!!! I need to start blogging more
but when you don't really have readers theres really no reason to blog.
haha! Not much has happened, still dating logan, yesterday was our two month anniversary!!
Tomorrow i start testing for the CRCTS...not excited about that one. well i kind of am because i can't wait to see all my friends. But anyways, its late and i cant sleep. I'm not even that tired.
Life hates me right now. Tomorrow im going to be dead, so im going to try and talk my mom into buying me energy drinks before the test...or coffee. Which ever one, i love them both xD
anyways 3 days until the concert!! Believers Never die part duex! i was at the part 1 show too!! haha im so excited like a bunch of my fave bands are gunna be there:

Fall Out Boy
Cobra Starship
Hey Monday
All Time low
and last but certainly not least
Metro station!

so im uber pumped! but i need to find my fob t-shirt. it totally just got up and walked away. i cleaned my entire room last night and still didn't find it. I'm basically screwed. But i need that shirt so i can match my shea-shea. Anyways...i totally forgot what i was going to tell you next and now im sad because i really wanted to tell you something...oh wait!! I just remembered, I'm going back to public school next year!! YAY!! haha im so excited!! rofl!!Ok shea if your reading this: me+you+the gym=this weekend. text me. Anyways, I should totally be asleep but i just finished a manga, and im on the phone with IAN! woot! So for the last two months my my chem calendar has been on january (: but i finally fixed that, although i didn't mind having gerard on my wall all year. But Mikey's face needs to hurry up and be on the frikkin calendar, because i swear he is gorgeous!! ANYWAYS!! so i basically have no viewers on my "webshow" which is really just a bunch of videos of me doing nothing. haha check it out: www.youtube.com/imxxnotxok2013 rofl leave comments!! anyways thats basically all i have to say, and sorry if i take another random like 2 month hiatus. rofl (:
byyeeee

aithsjkghsad WOOT!!

ok!! so like the twilight release party was last night..or yesterday morning..it was UH-MAH-ZING!! im watching the movie (for the second time since i got it) as i write this blog right now. It's almost over though xP lolz her prom outfit is adorable..converse..cast..blue dress, leggings..its nice [: anyways last night there was trivia, a costume contest (i went as edward, and i was the only edward there) and we had lots of fun. I can't wait till the next movie comes out!! Anywhore, thanks for commenting, and stalking me, and what not!! Peace Out!!

Can't Keep Up

I know i take long periods of time between posts..but then you never know when you get to hear more about my wonderful...life..yeah. Anyways..not much has happened recently...uhh...on friday i have a Twilight movie release party to go to. I'm going with my friend Darion...then if i can manage to find something else to do this weekend, I'll let you know. Tonight I'm going to church in loganville to see my wonderfull Boyfriend, Today is our 1 month anniversary so I'm super excited. I also get to see a bunch of people i haven't seen in a while because I've been out of town alot the last few weeks. so..yayyyy ^.^
ok i think im dun...
kkthnxbaii

Survey...as promised

What would you do if the door bell rang and it was Lil' Wayne?
Scream and slam the door shut



How old is the last person you kissed?
14




Who was the last person you kissed?
nunya business



Do you have a reason to smile right now?
yeah kinda



What are you listening to right now?
Fall Out Boy - American Suithearts


What was the last thing you purchased?
idr


Have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with the letter C?
nope



Are you looking forward to anything?
yeah :]





Will you kiss the last person you kissed again?
no



Has anyone said they loved you today?
no



Who was the last person of the opposite sex that you had a conversation with?
Logan


How many times do you talk on the phone a day on average?
ehh..depends


Have you ever sung to anyone?
haha sure


Do you usually have weird dreams?
sometimes lolz
I was at hogwarts once :D



Where did you get the shirt that you are wearing?
walmart lol



Does your family own a business?
no


Is a best friend/boyfriend/girlfriend/ex pissing you off at the moment?
no




Did you have a good birthday this year?
boring -_-




When are you going on vacation next?
idk spring break?





Where do you want to live when you're older?
New York City :]



Ever found a dollar bill in a random place?
nah


Do you remember Furbies?
HAHA YES!!





What is something that you'd like to have right now?
food -_- i haven't eaten since like 10



Do you think a lot of people think bad things about you?
i dont care what you think...
as long as its about me
:]



Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?
yeah.
but my parents would shoot me



What do you carry with you at all times?
phone


When was the last time you were told you were cute by a boy?
idr



What's going on between you and the last person you kissed?
just friends -_-


Would you ever become a vegetarian?
I was one for a while
and im thinking about doing it again :/




Have you ever punched a hole in the wall?
haha no



Where were you at 2:00 this morning?
my room



If you could go back in time, would you?
maybe




What kind of bottoms are you wearing?
sweat pants


Who was the first person you talked to today?
my mom


If you could move somewhere else, would you?
maybe somewhere else in GA but not to another state



When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
Last week


Can you live a day without TV?
yes


Are you happy?
yeah

My Darkest Hour

Hello unfaithful readers!! :] So today i woke up, did school work, ate a grilled cheese sandwhich, then did more schoolwork. It wasn't a very eventful day :] I was supposed to be going skating with my boyfriend tonight.. but no -_- crushed plans....again. Yeah it sucks. So now I'm going to the movies with my family...oh joy. No, unlike other teenagers i actually enjoy being with my parents. Yeah they can be embarassing at times but i still love them. I need to straighten my hair and get actual clothes on. I've been in my PJ's all day :] I'm currently listening to SKSK (scary kids scaring kids) thats why i have that title, My darkest hour is my favorite song by them. :] I'm listening to it, while watching Law and Order xD be jealous, and now my friend Darion has called me and im on the phone with her while writting this :] and now i lost service and the call was dropped. GO TMOBILE!! She's asking me to come over. So while we figure out details you get to read my boring blog!! YAY!! No jk. She hung up to go talk to her mom. She's calling me back in a few minutes so until then i shall type. On thursday i have a singing lesson and i still dont have a song prepared, i was thinking about doing I write Sins, by Panic at the disco. I miss the old Panic. I mean their new songs are good and what not, but i miss the eyeliner, the circus theme, the hottness. I went to the show last november, not all that amazing. I mean of course Brendon and Ryan were beautiful but I was looking forward to seeing the circus thing, but of course they don't do that anymore because they're "mature" haha yeah right. But in April I'm going to the Believers Never Die part Duex show. So thats exciting. I'm absolutely in love with Fall Out Boy's new Song "American Suithearts" Actually, i think I'll listen to it right now!! BRB!....*your waiting*....BACK!! *sings* "LETS HEAR IT FOR AMERICAN SWEETHEARTS!!" *end singing* lol yeah, anyways. Darion still hasn't called back...and i don't really have much more to talk about. -sigh- uhh yeah thats my boring life for ya!! :] I think i might do a Myspace survey and post it on here :D yeah..thats what I'll doo!!! YOU JUST WAIT READERS!! IT'LL BE THE NEXT POST!! BUH BYE!!

-_- yeah..

I just love how I have followers but no comments. Just saying. Anyways i need to broadcast my blog more if i want more readers i guess, not that i really want people reading my business..lol. Anyways This weekend was eventful i guess, I went to my friends house on friday, we went to her sister's Winter gaurd performance. (Winter gaurd is like dance but with flags and stuff) I saw my music teacher from elementry school (He's the winter gaurd "coach" now) and when i saw him the first thing he did was look at me and go "Oh My God." But more in a "I can't believe it's you i want to run away" kind of voice. LOL. But weird thing is, when i left 5th grade to be homeschooled i gave him and my 5th grade teacher my Demo. And MR.H (music teacher) Still has it!! LOL!! kind of creepy though. LOLZ!! He barely remembered my friends but he was all like "makayla right" which was pretty good memory since i haven't seen him in 3-4 years, and even then I only saw him like 2 days a week + chorus in 4th and 5th grade. :] So that was fun. On sunday we went to the mall and counted all the hot guys we passed (12) lol one of them kept looking at me...awkward. HAHA. anyways. So we get home and watch harry potter and i don't end up coming home till 10:30pm lolz long story. Anyways now its 4am and I'm not really all that tired but i know if i dont go to sleep now i'll be dead tomorrow, so goodnight all you wonderful (not) readers. BUH BYE!

IM BACK!! WOOHOO

Hello not so faithful readers [:
Sorry I haven't posted in a while life has just been way crazy lately.
So this will probably be a pretty long post. Your welcome.
woot so lets begin starting from that night at sparkles that i talked about febuary 16th [:
Logan couldnt go. he was sick :[
So i went with Noelle and Daniel. it was fun, we played skate tag ( i won ) I met up with my friend Jesse and we hung out. I got three hot guys numbers. I saw my old babysitter :] and we talked for a few minutes. Then i had to go home :[ So that wednesday i decided i wanted to go to church, and not just because i wanted to see logan. :] maybe... anywhore, So i went to Noelle's house wednesday afternoon and then there ended up being tornadoes so i spent my night in a hallway covering myself with a pillow, drinking coke, and sitting in a laundry basket. Because im just cool like that. Needless to say, we didnt go to church. That night we were sitting in Noelle's room and she brought up Logan. Here's how it went down:

Noelle: So why did you say no when Logan asked you out?
Me: I know you like him, and i don't want to hurt you by dating him.
Noelle: so you like him?
Me:well..kind of, but I'm not going to do that to you.
Noelle: Oh shutup and go out with him.
Me: but i dont wanna like betray you or whatever.
Noelle: ask him out
Me: ok i'll do it tomorrow
Noelle: *sigh*
so then she grabs her phone and calls someone
Me: who are you calling?
Noelle: -Silence-
Me: Noelle who are you calling?!?
Noelle(on the phone): Hey Logan...You and malia are going out now.
Me: NOELLE I HATE YOU!!
Logan: What?
Noelle: You and Malia are dating
Logan: Seriously?
Noelle: Yeah she was going to ask you out tomorrow but i think thats to long to wait.
Logan: *yelling* OH MY GOD!!
Noelle: lol
Me: he's such a girl
Noelle: Logan ur a girl
Me: SHUT UP!
Logan: let me talk to malia.
*noelle hands me the phone*
Logan: is she serious
Me: yeah...
Logan: sweet.
Me: mmhm

so then we talked for about an hour then he had to go. :/

The next day i talked my dad into letting me stay again so i could go to the movies with Noelle, Her Boyfriend, Logan, bri, and joel! But then Logan got in trouble and he couldnt go then my mom called and said that i had to go home NOW! so i went to the theatre with the group and watched half the movie until my dad finally showed up and i left. We had to go to Kentucky because my gpa wasnt doing so well. So we get there and he's sick. We come home. We go back up, and come home with my mom this time (she had been staying up there this whole time) and then we get a call on wednesday while watching American Idol. My Gpa has taken a turn for the worst. So we go back. He gets better, me and my dad come home (mom stays again) then We go BACK AGAIN! and then we're there for about 4 days and he's gotten really sick now. So most the family is in the hospital room talking to him, even though he couldn't respond we knew he could here us. My mom and My aunt start singing to him, I'm reading in the corner, and then i hear everyone start to cry really hard. I look up to find, he's starting to go. and i mean...GO. Thats when i started crying (I'm actually tearing up just writing this right now) It was so sad to watch. Everyone broke down. The next Day, my sister came to Kentucky (She's in the army and she lives in colorado at the moment.) The viewing was on tuesday. Lots of crying there too. My mom and Aunt were going to order flowers for the occasion, they got balloons intstead [: Then on Wednesday my cousin Jimmy flew out from Washington for the actual funeral. When we got there Leis were being handed out, i had no clue why. It was a beautiful service, filled with tears, music from my grandma (who died when i was like 6) and bean-o. HAHA family joke. Before my gpa died he told them to throw him a party, so we had Leis and balloons. After we had the funeral everyone let a balloon go and we watched them float away into the sky. It was beautiful. Then we all went to go eat at the Country Club (it was my gpa's favorite place to eat.) And i have a wierd family so everyone was laughing and everyone was happy. We threw a party. :] One of the workers actually asked if it was a birthday party. LOL. Anyways, I'm back home now. And I'm going to see Logan on Monday and Im going to Sarah's house on Saturday. So I'm okay right now, still a little bit sad, but im okay.

Welllll I think I'm all done here so I hope you guys are happy im back. If not, i don't really care :]

peace and sunshine,
M@l!!@ M@$$@Cr3

Sparkles

helloo people :D
i know i posted like 5 minutes ago but that post had a special meaning
this one doesn't.
my day has been ok, boring, but ok. I have the whole week off for mid winter break.
thats the upside to homeschooling, i get random week long breaks. xP
so my friend Daniel called, he does that randomly x], and asked if i wanted to go
to sparkles to go rollar skating. It's 1 dollar night tonight and EVERYTHING is $1
so i was like sure, and then he was like "we should invite noelle" and i was like ok
so noelle is going, and Logan might go if he can, o joy...
anyways. I was gonna call shea and ask if she wanted but i got distracted :D
i'll call her in a few minutes though. So I'm sitting here in my room doing nothing.
im farting around on the internet, texting people editing my profile on myspace.
click here to add me. so like yeah thats about all for today!!

peace and sunshine,
M@l!!@ M@$$@Cr3

HA! ON YOU!!

hello
this is going to sound horrible
but like Ryan Ross is single and im happy about it :D
Keltie said she read a text message he got (ms. nosey >:[...)
and apparently he's a cheater :D
lolz silly ryan. anyways i never liked keltie
because you know..she was dating ryan <3
so like he's single now :D HA!!
anyways i know that sounds really bad
and im sorry it ended like that and i feel bad for her and everything
but me being the other woman..im glad i have ryan for myself now
;]

Home Sweet Home

so my grandpa is sick in the hospital. so i had to go to kentucky this past weekend and miss valentines day in ga. ohwell. I'm home now, got home about 2 hours ago. It's 1:06am and i'm not tired cuz i slept in the car xp. anyways just thought i'd make a blog saying i was home lolz. im bored =D

peace and sunshine,
malia massacre

Valentines Day SUX >:[

Sorry i haven't been blogging lately
(not that i have readers that care x] lol)
So anyways, i don't know if i've mentioned the fact
that i started dating nate. if i have...then whatever
if i haven't then..get over it.
Me and nate started dating January 14th.
I broke up with him on monday.
The week before i broke up with him i was asked out
by my ex boyfriend (of 3 years) Paul. I said no..cuz i was taken.
The night before i broke up with nate
Paul asked me to be his valentine date.
The DAY i broke up with Nate.
Logan asked me out.
>:[
And i said no to logan. (but i didn't want to...shhh dont tell anyone...SHUT UP SHEA)
anyways.
I can't date logan because my friend likes him, (even though she has a boyfriend)
and its just like >:[ because that sux.
-sigh-
So i was supposed to go on that valentines day date with Paul.
But change of plans because im going to kentucky this weekend cuz my Gpa is dying.
so we're reschedualing valentines day.
maybe.
Anyways im currently valentinesless so Me and Shea (<-- click for her blog)
are exchanging presents but we prlly have to do it tomorrow bcuz i wont be hurr saturday.
ON THE UPSIDE!!!

I got an X-box this week, and a new laptop.
i cant open the laptop yet, for unknown reasons.
i think it's because my parents are gay.
they say otherwise. x]

I also got a new guitar.
Fender Stratocaster.
His name is roosevelt
and i love him :]
Im going to be learning how to play "my life would suck without you"
that new kelly clarkson song.
so wish me luck.

Anyways i hope you all have sucky Valentines day just so i feel better about myself x]

peace and sunshine,
M@l!!@ M@$$@Cr3 (<-- idk why those are links x] dont click them)

STEELERS PWN!!

if you didnt already know im a huge football fan
Steelers = ♥
i already made a post about being at shea's
and 2 minutes after i posted that the steelers won!!
The cardinals made a comeback towards the end.
45 seconds left and the steelers went for a touchdown
the ball slipped RIGHT through the dudes hands!!
i was so angry!! THE STEELERS HAD TO WIN!!
so were sitting there staring at the screen
thinking that the steelers were going to loose
and in the last 35 seconds THEY SCORED!
so me and shea did our touchdown dance and the steelers won
( i knew they would) so all in all it was a fun night xD yeah
haha


P.S. 50th POST CELEBRATION!!!!!! *does happy dance*
yayyyyyyyyy

WOOT!! SHEAAAAAAAAAA!! <333

As you guys know it's superbowl sunday!! (go steelers)
its 20-14 steelers r winning and they shall dominate this game!!
WOOHOO
I'm at Shea's (www.shealikessushi.blogspot.com) house and were freaking out
even though we have no idea whats going on :D we just do whatever her dad does
xD anyways im leaving after the game :( but we DID make a video while i was here
it should be on youtube tomorrow (www.youtube.com/iwantfunnyxx)
Check It Out!!
We are VURRY dissapointed with the commercials this year!! none of them
have satisfied my funnyness needs >:[ and the Halftime shows have sucked
ever since Prince (he's beast!!)
anyways i never told you about my aqaurium trip
so i'll make a post tomorrow :D
anyways g2g pce out BYE

Overcast Kids

WOOT WOOT
raise du roof xD
so as yew know im a concert junkie :D
on May 23rd Fall out boy, hey monday, metro station, all time low, and cobra starship are coming.
The tickets go on sale tomorrow
but guess what losers?
i have mine today :D
I am officially a member Of Overcast Kids (fall out boy's fan club)
i get a free shirt, a signed pic, and advance access to ticket sales.
be jealous xD
thats all
bye

well then :D

helloooo readers that don't exist :D

I am bored.
this morning i got like 7 fwd. text messages at 8am.
i woke up fully about an hour later and i had 15 messages waiting for me.
how awesome xD
nothing much has happened lately.
I went bowling this weekend.
i played three games my scores were (dont laugh):

game1: 70 :D
game2: 55
game3: 6 xD

on the third game our lane broke down of the fourth frame so its not completely horrible that i got a six. normally people would be like "well those scores aren't so bad." but my parents were championship bowler's in college, my dad was an AMAZING bowler My mom was also amazing and i suck...so yeah. xD
anyways i must depart lovely readers.
thanks for reading!!

peace and sunshine,
malia massacre

judge me

dont judge me for the way i dress
or the music that i like
dont hate me cuz i dont live
the way you live your life
im never gonna fall for it
the tricks you play on me
you try and make me change myself
but honey im just me.
You judge me for the way i dress
but i'm not gonna change
you hate me for my music taste
you all think its strange.
I won't change
Im just me
so let me be who i wanna be.

I hate lables!!

Everywhere we go people are judged by the way they dress, or where they shop, or even what kind of music they listen to. I, for one, am sick of it. I'm sick of going to the mall and getting dirty looks because im dressed "different" than "normal" people dress. Who gets to define normal? why can't I be the normal one? i think everyone else is the weird crowd. I'm sick of getting bullied or harrassed because of my social status, i may not be the most popular girl around but i have plenty of friends who like me for me, not because of the stuff i have. I jsut wish that for once i can walk into a store and NOT have people stare at me because i have purple jeans on or a "scary" t-shirt. I can't tell you how many times i've gone some where and i've overheard other teenagers talking about me when i'm right next to them. The other day some girls called me a skank, and then straight up took a piture of me and my friends because we were dressed "weird"!! I think we should all be able to get along, without having problems like "style" some people that talk about me have never even talked TO me and they never will get the chance because i dont want to talk to them because of the things they've said. Some girls at a school i don't even go to spread rumors about me and i've never even met them they just judge me off of the pictures on my profile. I'm sick of being scared to talk to people because im afraid of what they'll think. I used to be the girl that could just walk up to you and say hi and then we would be best friends. But now I worry about what to say, and what would impress people and make them like me. I've turned into someone i told myself i would never be. I want to be that outgoing social crazy funny girl again. but because of lables and steryotypes and rumors and stupid teenagers i can't do that anymore. So tell me, why can't we all just get along and LIKE EACHOTHER FOR WHO WE FREAKING ARE?!?! it's because of the "other side" that i've lost my self confidence. If your with me on this leave a comment. Follow me in this raid to change the way teenagers are, thanks for reading!!

peace and sunshine.
M@lii@ Ma$$aCr3

OMGIJUSTMETWETHEKINGSANDHEYMONDAYANDCASHCASH

If yew cant read the title it says:

OMG I JUST MET WE THE KINGS AND HEY MONDAY AND CASH CASH

I got a call last night it went something like this:

Sarah: Hey guess what!

Malia: what?

Sarah: Cassidy just told me that We the Kings is gonna be at Hot Topic tomorrow at the mall!!

Malia: *screams*

Sarah: Haha

Malia: OMG we are totally going!! your going right

Sarah: *goes to ask her mom*

Malia: *waits*

Sarah: *comes back* can your mom take us

Malia: *goes to ask her mom*

Sarah: *waits*

Malia: she said yes!!!

omg yay!! so it was totally amazing
and Shea couldnt go cuz shes sick so i got her autographed posters!!!

I got to meet Travis!!! His hair is just as amazing in person!!
AND I WAS LIKE GIGGLING THE WHOLE TIME!!
it was amazing xD
we couldnt take pictures WITH them but we got pictures OF them xD
yay