Wow.

ok so it's been a while eh? i go from blogging almost everyday to blogging once every few months...drastic...not that anyone reads this haha it's moar for me to just...let things out -.-
lots to talk about...my love life took a turn for the worst in january. all though you already know about all the stuff with logan and tyler...theres more. I broke up with tyler, i have no idea why, i love him. (don't tell me im stupid..trust me ok..i know im only 14 but...its just...i do ok?) I dated nate, then logan, then ian, now its andrew...it's only june. I don't know why i've gone through guys like clothes but...i know i don't want to become a girl who breaks everyones heart. I know i don't want to have disposable boyfriends, and i know that i need to stop falling for guys more than a year older than me. It's a long story but basically 2 seventeen year olds since november, both of them broke my heart. But amongst all the relationship chaos i've realized there's only one guy i want and every thought leads back to him, Tyler. He knows i want him back, i actually told him about an hour ago, i said "No games, in total seriousness, im want to give us another chance if you're willing" he says "I'm not sure really" and in all honesty, i wouldn't blame him if he said no. I know i really hurt him when i broke up with him a short 5 months ago...and i know i never ever wanted to hurt him like that, i mean i was in love with the guy for 6 years people..you gota understand here. I dated him for a little over 6 months..when i broke up with him we were about a week and a half away from our 7th month. and as i've gone through these guys i've realized..i will never be more happy with anyone like i was with tyler. I will admit, he's not the most attractive guy i've dated, but he's a cutie, and he's so sweet, and funny. Sometimes he can be downright mean, though never to me just his (and my) friends. But he's working on it...All i know is that i really hope he'll take me back, but i understand if he doesn't. And if for any reason you read this tyler (though i highly doubt you will) well, i love you.