Wow.

ok so it's been a while eh? i go from blogging almost everyday to blogging once every few months...drastic...not that anyone reads this haha it's moar for me to just...let things out -.-
lots to talk about...my love life took a turn for the worst in january. all though you already know about all the stuff with logan and tyler...theres more. I broke up with tyler, i have no idea why, i love him. (don't tell me im stupid..trust me ok..i know im only 14 but...its just...i do ok?) I dated nate, then logan, then ian, now its andrew...it's only june. I don't know why i've gone through guys like clothes but...i know i don't want to become a girl who breaks everyones heart. I know i don't want to have disposable boyfriends, and i know that i need to stop falling for guys more than a year older than me. It's a long story but basically 2 seventeen year olds since november, both of them broke my heart. But amongst all the relationship chaos i've realized there's only one guy i want and every thought leads back to him, Tyler. He knows i want him back, i actually told him about an hour ago, i said "No games, in total seriousness, im want to give us another chance if you're willing" he says "I'm not sure really" and in all honesty, i wouldn't blame him if he said no. I know i really hurt him when i broke up with him a short 5 months ago...and i know i never ever wanted to hurt him like that, i mean i was in love with the guy for 6 years people..you gota understand here. I dated him for a little over 6 months..when i broke up with him we were about a week and a half away from our 7th month. and as i've gone through these guys i've realized..i will never be more happy with anyone like i was with tyler. I will admit, he's not the most attractive guy i've dated, but he's a cutie, and he's so sweet, and funny. Sometimes he can be downright mean, though never to me just his (and my) friends. But he's working on it...All i know is that i really hope he'll take me back, but i understand if he doesn't. And if for any reason you read this tyler (though i highly doubt you will) well, i love you.

long time no see!!

Omg it's been forever since i blogged last!!! I need to start blogging more
but when you don't really have readers theres really no reason to blog.
haha! Not much has happened, still dating logan, yesterday was our two month anniversary!!
Tomorrow i start testing for the CRCTS...not excited about that one. well i kind of am because i can't wait to see all my friends. But anyways, its late and i cant sleep. I'm not even that tired.
Life hates me right now. Tomorrow im going to be dead, so im going to try and talk my mom into buying me energy drinks before the test...or coffee. Which ever one, i love them both xD
anyways 3 days until the concert!! Believers Never die part duex! i was at the part 1 show too!! haha im so excited like a bunch of my fave bands are gunna be there:

Fall Out Boy
Cobra Starship
Hey Monday
All Time low
and last but certainly not least
Metro station!

so im uber pumped! but i need to find my fob t-shirt. it totally just got up and walked away. i cleaned my entire room last night and still didn't find it. I'm basically screwed. But i need that shirt so i can match my shea-shea. Anyways...i totally forgot what i was going to tell you next and now im sad because i really wanted to tell you something...oh wait!! I just remembered, I'm going back to public school next year!! YAY!! haha im so excited!! rofl!!Ok shea if your reading this: me+you+the gym=this weekend. text me. Anyways, I should totally be asleep but i just finished a manga, and im on the phone with IAN! woot! So for the last two months my my chem calendar has been on january (: but i finally fixed that, although i didn't mind having gerard on my wall all year. But Mikey's face needs to hurry up and be on the frikkin calendar, because i swear he is gorgeous!! ANYWAYS!! so i basically have no viewers on my "webshow" which is really just a bunch of videos of me doing nothing. haha check it out: www.youtube.com/imxxnotxok2013 rofl leave comments!! anyways thats basically all i have to say, and sorry if i take another random like 2 month hiatus. rofl (:
byyeeee

aithsjkghsad WOOT!!

ok!! so like the twilight release party was last night..or yesterday morning..it was UH-MAH-ZING!! im watching the movie (for the second time since i got it) as i write this blog right now. It's almost over though xP lolz her prom outfit is adorable..converse..cast..blue dress, leggings..its nice [: anyways last night there was trivia, a costume contest (i went as edward, and i was the only edward there) and we had lots of fun. I can't wait till the next movie comes out!! Anywhore, thanks for commenting, and stalking me, and what not!! Peace Out!!

Can't Keep Up

I know i take long periods of time between posts..but then you never know when you get to hear more about my wonderful...life..yeah. Anyways..not much has happened recently...uhh...on friday i have a Twilight movie release party to go to. I'm going with my friend Darion...then if i can manage to find something else to do this weekend, I'll let you know. Tonight I'm going to church in loganville to see my wonderfull Boyfriend, Today is our 1 month anniversary so I'm super excited. I also get to see a bunch of people i haven't seen in a while because I've been out of town alot the last few weeks. so..yayyyy ^.^
ok i think im dun...
kkthnxbaii

Survey...as promised

What would you do if the door bell rang and it was Lil' Wayne?
Scream and slam the door shut



How old is the last person you kissed?
14




Who was the last person you kissed?
nunya business



Do you have a reason to smile right now?
yeah kinda



What are you listening to right now?
Fall Out Boy - American Suithearts


What was the last thing you purchased?
idr


Have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with the letter C?
nope



Are you looking forward to anything?
yeah :]





Will you kiss the last person you kissed again?
no



Has anyone said they loved you today?
no



Who was the last person of the opposite sex that you had a conversation with?
Logan


How many times do you talk on the phone a day on average?
ehh..depends


Have you ever sung to anyone?
haha sure


Do you usually have weird dreams?
sometimes lolz
I was at hogwarts once :D



Where did you get the shirt that you are wearing?
walmart lol



Does your family own a business?
no


Is a best friend/boyfriend/girlfriend/ex pissing you off at the moment?
no




Did you have a good birthday this year?
boring -_-




When are you going on vacation next?
idk spring break?





Where do you want to live when you're older?
New York City :]



Ever found a dollar bill in a random place?
nah


Do you remember Furbies?
HAHA YES!!





What is something that you'd like to have right now?
food -_- i haven't eaten since like 10



Do you think a lot of people think bad things about you?
i dont care what you think...
as long as its about me
:]



Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?
yeah.
but my parents would shoot me



What do you carry with you at all times?
phone


When was the last time you were told you were cute by a boy?
idr



What's going on between you and the last person you kissed?
just friends -_-


Would you ever become a vegetarian?
I was one for a while
and im thinking about doing it again :/




Have you ever punched a hole in the wall?
haha no



Where were you at 2:00 this morning?
my room



If you could go back in time, would you?
maybe




What kind of bottoms are you wearing?
sweat pants


Who was the first person you talked to today?
my mom


If you could move somewhere else, would you?
maybe somewhere else in GA but not to another state



When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
Last week


Can you live a day without TV?
yes


Are you happy?
yeah

My Darkest Hour

Hello unfaithful readers!! :] So today i woke up, did school work, ate a grilled cheese sandwhich, then did more schoolwork. It wasn't a very eventful day :] I was supposed to be going skating with my boyfriend tonight.. but no -_- crushed plans....again. Yeah it sucks. So now I'm going to the movies with my family...oh joy. No, unlike other teenagers i actually enjoy being with my parents. Yeah they can be embarassing at times but i still love them. I need to straighten my hair and get actual clothes on. I've been in my PJ's all day :] I'm currently listening to SKSK (scary kids scaring kids) thats why i have that title, My darkest hour is my favorite song by them. :] I'm listening to it, while watching Law and Order xD be jealous, and now my friend Darion has called me and im on the phone with her while writting this :] and now i lost service and the call was dropped. GO TMOBILE!! She's asking me to come over. So while we figure out details you get to read my boring blog!! YAY!! No jk. She hung up to go talk to her mom. She's calling me back in a few minutes so until then i shall type. On thursday i have a singing lesson and i still dont have a song prepared, i was thinking about doing I write Sins, by Panic at the disco. I miss the old Panic. I mean their new songs are good and what not, but i miss the eyeliner, the circus theme, the hottness. I went to the show last november, not all that amazing. I mean of course Brendon and Ryan were beautiful but I was looking forward to seeing the circus thing, but of course they don't do that anymore because they're "mature" haha yeah right. But in April I'm going to the Believers Never Die part Duex show. So thats exciting. I'm absolutely in love with Fall Out Boy's new Song "American Suithearts" Actually, i think I'll listen to it right now!! BRB!....*your waiting*....BACK!! *sings* "LETS HEAR IT FOR AMERICAN SWEETHEARTS!!" *end singing* lol yeah, anyways. Darion still hasn't called back...and i don't really have much more to talk about. -sigh- uhh yeah thats my boring life for ya!! :] I think i might do a Myspace survey and post it on here :D yeah..thats what I'll doo!!! YOU JUST WAIT READERS!! IT'LL BE THE NEXT POST!! BUH BYE!!

-_- yeah..

I just love how I have followers but no comments. Just saying. Anyways i need to broadcast my blog more if i want more readers i guess, not that i really want people reading my business..lol. Anyways This weekend was eventful i guess, I went to my friends house on friday, we went to her sister's Winter gaurd performance. (Winter gaurd is like dance but with flags and stuff) I saw my music teacher from elementry school (He's the winter gaurd "coach" now) and when i saw him the first thing he did was look at me and go "Oh My God." But more in a "I can't believe it's you i want to run away" kind of voice. LOL. But weird thing is, when i left 5th grade to be homeschooled i gave him and my 5th grade teacher my Demo. And MR.H (music teacher) Still has it!! LOL!! kind of creepy though. LOLZ!! He barely remembered my friends but he was all like "makayla right" which was pretty good memory since i haven't seen him in 3-4 years, and even then I only saw him like 2 days a week + chorus in 4th and 5th grade. :] So that was fun. On sunday we went to the mall and counted all the hot guys we passed (12) lol one of them kept looking at me...awkward. HAHA. anyways. So we get home and watch harry potter and i don't end up coming home till 10:30pm lolz long story. Anyways now its 4am and I'm not really all that tired but i know if i dont go to sleep now i'll be dead tomorrow, so goodnight all you wonderful (not) readers. BUH BYE!